letting go...

the last two weeks have been pretty crazy, with finishing up projects and studying for finals (i only have 2) and finishing up KXA-related stuff. i've been reminded on more than one occasion that moving on is a hard, but amazingly wonderful thing. for the last year and a half, my life has been one of eating, sleeping, and breathing KXA. while i have loved (almost) every minute of it, it has been good to go through the "letting go" process over the last couple of weeks. it is a bittersweet time, just like sarah told me it would be. i have loved serving and leading, but i am ready for someone else to be the one to answer everyone's questions and fix everyone's problems. i'm ready for someone else to deal with all of the griping and complaining. i'm ready for someone else to have to the joy of leading this groupw of amazing young women. i'm ready to have true friends again. i'm ready to be involved in what i want to be involved in instead of always feeling pressured to do everything. i'm ready to figure out what is next for me.

i know it's not going to be easy, completely letting go that is. i know that over Christmas break i am going to have to do a lot of soul searching and asking God to give me a pure heart. i know i will have a tendency to be jealous and envious. but, i will get through it. i will move on. i will have true friends again. i will be involved in other things. i will let go. God, help me let go.